The Overthinker's Journal

This blog has been a place for me to get out my feelings. So far a lot of it has been about what’s going on politically, but this is one of the ramifications.

I told about how I’m moving on. Well, that means packing my house. And today is the day the movers come.

I am not ready for them.

I barely got things back in the house after my divorce. I spent 3/4ths of 2024 living in an extended stay hotel. And now I’m getting it all packed up to go to a new home…. Eventually. After I can sell this house and buy something else.

Anyway…. I just feel like I can’t let go of some things. I have some odd hobbies I guess. Vintage computing and retro video gaming. So I have a room devoted entirely to video games. With shelves of Atari 2600 games in box. And now someone’s going to put them all in boxes and take them to a storage facility?

And my kitchen… there’s boxes of cereal and crackers and canned goods, and a loaf of bread…. What happens when they come in and have to pack around that?

I know I should be more prepared for them. But I’m not. I didn’t get there. Life got in the way. I was navigating a divorce, then all the crap this administration threw on me. Then trying to find a new job. Then applying for that job, and interviewing for it. Then trying to resign from my current one. And now trying to get moved to my new life.

I didn’t have time. I feel like I’ve failed. And I know, the movers aren’t going to judge me. They’re going to do what they are getting paid for – put my crap into boxes and boxes in the truck.

But I can’t help but feel like I am not prepared for them to come in and put my life up into cardboard boxes. I should’ve spent more time working on getting ready. But they’ll be here any second.

I’m not looking for pity. Well, maybe a little. I wish I had some physical help. I have some wonderful friends who support me with words from far away. But when I looked at everything on my plate, I felt alone. That didn’t help.

I just had to get this out. I’m sitting here in tears and needed to express my feelings. Thank you if you read this far.